Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Pushing Myself Outside My Comfort Zone

Good Morning Loves. It is early here... too early for me to be awake, but yet here I sit, coffee in hand, writing to you. 

Life is a roller coaster. It takes you up and down, all around, flips you, spins you... all the while you hang on tight, laugh, cry, and cope the best you know how. Being a creative soul, I see it come out in my art. This past year has been liberating for me when it comes to my art. I have pushed myself outside my comfort zone... even though just a little, I went there. It's exhilarating! 

I have gotten into zentangle, art journaling, bible journaling, sketching, watercolors, and have dabbled here recently in teaching myself writing with dip pens. I have also been writing and playing with photography. On top of scrapbooking, mixed media canvases, and altered art that I was already playing with... 

I tried out for, and made! the ColourArte design team. This has been a game changer for me. Being able to create with such phenomenal products where the sky is the limit when I sit down at my studio table. 

Here are some of my favorite projects, sketches, etc... from this past year: 

I have not given my little blog the attention it deserves. I am going to try to make more of an effort to come here more often... with my art, my thoughts, or latest adventures. 

Until next time, Happy Creating Loves! 

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Creating through the Pain - Broken Red Thread

Hello creative loves. It has been a moment since I have shared with you and what I am sharing today is very personal and meaningful. The past couple months have been a whirlwind. One that was absolutely beautiful and then proven to all be a lie. I have learned and grown, and for that it is hard to be angry, but my heart is broken. 

Awhile back I shared that I was apart of the ColourArte Design Team... it has been so wonderful and I have enjoyed it so much. I have been sharing over on their blog. A couple of my projects were inspired by someone who was brought into my life and whom I loved very much. I have since found out that it was all a lie and a sick twisted game to get his ex back. Needless to say I was devastated and heartbroken. 

In my studio I always find healing and creating is a release. So, that is where I turned. One of the projects I did for ColourArte was a layout, the first of what I thought would be many... 

I poured my heart and feelings into this layout. Unlike his "feelings", mine were true and pure. I never thought I would love again and he showed me that I could and THAT is one reason why I cannot hate him. 

But what the hell am I suppose to do with this layout? I sure as hell do not want it in my album... AT ALL! So, I took to my Art Journal.

Starting by covering the entire page in Radiant Gel by ColourArte.

I added a little more color using Silks in Pomegranate and some Greens:

Using inspiration from another project I did out of love for us, I drew hearts in the top left corner and the bottom left corner. Each heart is made up of shredded up notes. His is from a note he wrote me and mine is the journaling from the layout. 

I then proceeded to rip up and tear the layout. There was something so therapeutic about this step... I was such a fool. I should of known better, but the red flags were covering my eyes. I have never been one to destroy and rip photos and memories, but I am so hurt, so completely hurt, that I ripped in half every photo I had of us. It was all a lie. When it came to this particular one, I slowly ripped it in half. Making sure I left myself in tact. I may be heartbroken, I may be sad, and I may be very hurt, BUT I am not broken. He never defined who I was and he did not complete me. 

I took the pieces and slowly put them back together, but differently this time, with a whole new meaning.

I use to look at you and see the rest of my life, but now I look at you and just see a chapter in my life. A beautiful chapter because of all I learned, how much I grew, and finding my way back to my relationship with God... That is why it is beautiful, NOT BECAUSE OF YOU. It is now a chapter that is closed. One I will never re-read or open again. It is a chapter full of lies and deceitfulness. 

...but I have the rest of my life in front of me. A life I will go out and live and be unapologetically me. A life that I pray you are not a part of at all. I have too much to offer and am worth far too much to give my heart to someone who's sole intent was to use it to gain back, and I quote, "a relationship that was always toxic." So, I have started my new chapter and am happy for the first time in weeks. Letting go took the weight of the world off my shoulders and I am holding on to God and my Faith to see me through. 

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11

"I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well." -Psalm 139:14


The pole that is painted down the center is very significant. Based off a conversation that we had  on my patio one day about God and Faith. The red string is from a Chinese Proverb: 
The two people connected by the red thread are destined lovers, regardless of place, time, or circumstances. This magical chord may stretch or tangle, but never break.
The red thread wrapped around the foundation of God... what a beautiful picture.

Have I mentioned what an absolute fool I was??? 

So here is the red thread, connected to my heart, and wrapped around the pole, and then cut. The other piece connected to his heart and just hanging. 

So what is left of all the love I had for you mixed with all your lies is this:

Creating this page was definitely part of the healing process. I know only God and time will heal me. I will never understand how you were able to say and do the things you did when it was all a game to you. Some answers I am just not meant to have.... that is were I just have to trust God with all I have. As hurt as I am right now, I know that God saved me from becoming apart of your toxic cycle. 
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results. 

I still pray for you. I still pray for C and your family. I can't help it, that is what I am being lead to do. I pray for me. That I can move on and I pray so hard that I do not allow anger and bitterness in my heart. I also pray that God will guide me so that I am never such a fool again and that I am able to recognize bullshit when it comes my way. 

Creating heals. Don't be afraid to create art that is inspired by the difficult times, by the hard times, the times that break you. 

I love you, my creative family. I pray for your happiness and inspiration and a life full of blessings. 

Until next time... Happy Creating! 

Saturday, May 28, 2016

Happy, Happy Girl!

Hello Loves!
I have some VERY, VERY exciting news...

That's right!!! I am on the ColourArt Design Team! I am so excited to be on this team with such amazingly talented women and to be able to share about art and products that I love. 

Here is the link to the ColourArte Blog...
ColourArte Blog

Below are all the other places you can find me...
First... HERE
This is my blog... and I remember all those years ago when I decided to start it. WOW! 

Facebook Page:



I hope you have a wonderful Holiday weekend. 


Saturday, May 14, 2016

Resist with Gel Medium - Birthday Fun

Hello Loves! Today I am sharing a fun resist technique using Gel Medium. 
Below are two layouts I did using stenciling, gel medium, modeling paste, and lots of ink and paint! 

Using The Harlequin Stencil from The Crafter's Workshop, I used a palette knife and Gel Medium. Once the Gel Medium dries it acts as a resist. You can see below the diamonds have resisted the paint and ink. 

You can also see here the Distress Ink I used to color the edge of the layout. 

Using a stencil by Dylusions, Checkered Dots, I added dimension with Modeling Paste and Paint. 

The paint splatter was created by "dabbing" the paint dauber down. 

Using an arrow stamp and a heart, I stamped onto my scraps to create a little grouping. I used this throughout all the layouts for my birthday.

Using my Silhouette Cameo I cut out Polaroid Frames for my photos. 

I had a lot of fun creating these layouts. Matte Gel Medium is one of my go to's and I loved that I found a new way to play with it. 

I hope everyone has a lovely Saturday and finds a little time to create. 


Thursday, March 31, 2016

Twinkling in My Studio...

I am sharing another page from my art journal today. I am working on several projects, but i keep going back to my art journal. It is just so much fun for me right now. I also and using this as a submission to the ColourArte Design Team Call. ....so fingers crossed! 

Once again...starting with blank pages... You can see here that I have parchment paper between my pages. This is to protect the rest of the journal as I get a bit carried away with paint, ink, and more!!! 
...and you can see that my parchment paper is very well loved. 

I wanted to play with resist techniques. So using Extra Thick Gloss Medium and ColourArte Silks, I created the color I wanted to use with my stencil. The Gloss Medium is what will resist the other mediums used. 
 I used the Silks to add color to my Gloss Medium. Otherwise it would of dried clear. 

Now time to stencil... 

 After spreading the yellow medium out, I decided to shake it up a little more and added some orange to the stenciling.... 

I loved how it turned out... 

I had quite a bit of medium on my stencil, so I once I pulled it up, I put it face down on the opposite page and used a brayer to "stamp" the stencil on to the page. 

This really made me happy! I then used my heat gun to dry it. This side took a lot less time to dry vs. the other side. It was not as thick. 

Now this is where the magic begins! Using the Twinkling H2O's from ColourArte, I washed color over the pages. I was able to wipe it off of all my stenciling. 

See how the stenciling resisted the Twinkling H2O's? 

I then used another one of my favorite stencils and Distress Ink and created rays. 

A little gesso to create a place for my quote... 

Both sides are now washed in that beautiful color! 

Now after this, I just started playing. Adding some Dylusions Paint, Tissue Paper, Washi Tape and a few photos.... 
...and Wa-La!!! 

Supplies Used: 

Until next time loves... Happy Creating!